写作营 2004
Tomorrow's the LEP camp at NTU. yay! Kinda looking forward to it, cuz heard that every year, its juz as fun (heard from alot of seniors...) Last year cuz of SARS, they had it at the end of the year, at a chalet!(not fair.) Zhang Han said it was alot of fun, though they had four in a room (the more the merrier, u see). He was in a room wif Yi4 Yang2, Si4 Xiong2, Andrew. All TJCians, but he said it wuz still as fun as if they had a mix of sch pple. I'm in the same room as HuiMin, shld be fun.... =)
My grp leader, hmmm... very interested to get to know him, heard SO much abt him from Jaime, Chen Si, Chiat Ying, ZiHui. Is he DAT nice?(I will noe by the same time tomorrow, i tink.)
Feeling super tired today. Maybe cuz haven been sleeping well(or even sleeping at all...actually.) After church had to go do PW, couldn even stay for baptismal service, and so many of my frenz getting baptised today! Sigh... starting to dislike PW even more. And Mdm Goh still hasn approved our proposal(or anyone else's for that matter), but its already wad, the fifth submission?
Gotta go pack camp bag. cheers.
Joyce at 8:42 PM
My grp leader, hmmm... very interested to get to know him, heard SO much abt him from Jaime, Chen Si, Chiat Ying, ZiHui. Is he DAT nice?(I will noe by the same time tomorrow, i tink.)
Feeling super tired today. Maybe cuz haven been sleeping well(or even sleeping at all...actually.) After church had to go do PW, couldn even stay for baptismal service, and so many of my frenz getting baptised today! Sigh... starting to dislike PW even more. And Mdm Goh still hasn approved our proposal(or anyone else's for that matter), but its already wad, the fifth submission?
Gotta go pack camp bag. cheers.
Joyce at 8:42 PM
things resume...
Com back in working order. Yay!!! All thanks to Chia Yi, and my parents(who got it fixed.)... *Clap clap clap*... Thanks so much so much!!!
And my week, finally comes rushing to a comma. Time for half a day of rest. SOOOOOOoooo tired and burnt out. This week esp so... din sleep, din eat well... sighz* Basically cuz had sports carnival whole two days, linked by the TJC overnight relay where teams had a non-stop relay where they ran and ran all thru the night for a consecutive 18(or wuz it 15? or 20?) hours +++. I was helping my LEO Board seniors wif the time-keeping and waking up the runners on time etc. basically, we were officials. and i wuz an unofficial official. I din do much, actually, but i had fun, suprisingly. =P The seniors were all VERY VERY nice. for some unknown reason. haha.
next is the passing down, held in some function room in a formal format. ALOT to do, i realised, and so much responsibility i almost stopped breathing. and after passing down, the immediate next day (today) is our first GM in term of office, so super 'rush' and crazy day, today esp. wad wif the Temasek Academy(4yr integrated programme) open house community service booth etc etc....
Half way thru my board meeting yuan jie called me to tell me he already reach mrt le. following whole night of bbq... luckily there wuz mom, dad, chia yi arnd to help. =P no big probs dere.... in fact, i did have fun. really.
juz remembered, tomorrow's the last time i'll be seeing jie. and i haven packed my LEP camp bag. and i need to sleep now. tired.
**Andrew- ur stuff all in huisuo, with one big paper tag i stuck on the paper bag containing everything for tomorroe's performance. It says "To: Andrew". all the best being ur MC for that concert, jia you!!! Sorry i din go down to chalet to pass u the pants etc... had an impt impt function juz now....**
Joyce at 11:30 PM
And my week, finally comes rushing to a comma. Time for half a day of rest. SOOOOOOoooo tired and burnt out. This week esp so... din sleep, din eat well... sighz* Basically cuz had sports carnival whole two days, linked by the TJC overnight relay where teams had a non-stop relay where they ran and ran all thru the night for a consecutive 18(or wuz it 15? or 20?) hours +++. I was helping my LEO Board seniors wif the time-keeping and waking up the runners on time etc. basically, we were officials. and i wuz an unofficial official. I din do much, actually, but i had fun, suprisingly. =P The seniors were all VERY VERY nice. for some unknown reason. haha.
next is the passing down, held in some function room in a formal format. ALOT to do, i realised, and so much responsibility i almost stopped breathing. and after passing down, the immediate next day (today) is our first GM in term of office, so super 'rush' and crazy day, today esp. wad wif the Temasek Academy(4yr integrated programme) open house community service booth etc etc....
Half way thru my board meeting yuan jie called me to tell me he already reach mrt le. following whole night of bbq... luckily there wuz mom, dad, chia yi arnd to help. =P no big probs dere.... in fact, i did have fun. really.
juz remembered, tomorrow's the last time i'll be seeing jie. and i haven packed my LEP camp bag. and i need to sleep now. tired.
**Andrew- ur stuff all in huisuo, with one big paper tag i stuck on the paper bag containing everything for tomorroe's performance. It says "To: Andrew". all the best being ur MC for that concert, jia you!!! Sorry i din go down to chalet to pass u the pants etc... had an impt impt function juz now....**
Joyce at 11:30 PM
Computer break-down....
ARGH.... my computer is spoilt le!! Cant even switch it on... tink is monitor prob. Now using school computer, so cant use too long, though the hub quite empty, but still...
Sigh. All my precious documents and files and photos and writings and lyrics and songs and... *sobz* all gone. But maybe it is time to change a new com. Though now, i got no time to go shop for one, neither do my parents have the time. And, hello, i need to fulfil some of my publicity director duties ya noe??? And my PW, wad am i supposed to do now??? Sch com cant print colour documents... and not very used to working on this com. How?????? Life is weird without my PC. Seriously, i noe wad u mean now, Chia Yi, the fear of ur computer breaking down, having everything wiped out. This fear has become reality for me, sad to say.
Ooh. Just now Min Dan was just saying she going to buy toto. hahah... wad is the legal age again?? But she plastered some black tape over the TJ crest on her shorts and wore a jacket over her AHS t-shirt. Anyway she looks as if she's 20+, so i guess she can bluff her way thru la. She asked me and HuiMin whether we want to buy... we were like "Huh?? Wad...?"
Finished with my lu yuan poster thingy, its nice!!! Really. Hmmm... i have four BBQs lined up consecutively... 23rd Board of Directors BBQ, 5 batches of Board of Directors combined BBQ (Have to go, all the seniors dere.), CCC chalet/bbq(not staying, but going for bbq + shi2 zhi4 lu4 kou3 on saturday(i'm in wan Jing, Ming Li, SuHui grp. yay!), YF bbq (on 29th... same day as shi2 zhi4 lu4 kou3)... geez, comfirm sore throat le!
Oh. just realised i've been here for some time le. Have to go soon.... wonder when i will have a new com or my com will be miraculously revived. Sigh... so-long... =P
Joyce at 3:35 PM
Sigh. All my precious documents and files and photos and writings and lyrics and songs and... *sobz* all gone. But maybe it is time to change a new com. Though now, i got no time to go shop for one, neither do my parents have the time. And, hello, i need to fulfil some of my publicity director duties ya noe??? And my PW, wad am i supposed to do now??? Sch com cant print colour documents... and not very used to working on this com. How?????? Life is weird without my PC. Seriously, i noe wad u mean now, Chia Yi, the fear of ur computer breaking down, having everything wiped out. This fear has become reality for me, sad to say.
Ooh. Just now Min Dan was just saying she going to buy toto. hahah... wad is the legal age again?? But she plastered some black tape over the TJ crest on her shorts and wore a jacket over her AHS t-shirt. Anyway she looks as if she's 20+, so i guess she can bluff her way thru la. She asked me and HuiMin whether we want to buy... we were like "Huh?? Wad...?"
Finished with my lu yuan poster thingy, its nice!!! Really. Hmmm... i have four BBQs lined up consecutively... 23rd Board of Directors BBQ, 5 batches of Board of Directors combined BBQ (Have to go, all the seniors dere.), CCC chalet/bbq(not staying, but going for bbq + shi2 zhi4 lu4 kou3 on saturday(i'm in wan Jing, Ming Li, SuHui grp. yay!), YF bbq (on 29th... same day as shi2 zhi4 lu4 kou3)... geez, comfirm sore throat le!
Oh. just realised i've been here for some time le. Have to go soon.... wonder when i will have a new com or my com will be miraculously revived. Sigh... so-long... =P
Joyce at 3:35 PM
爱上.
好怪
爱一个人的时候
什么都愿意做
一切牺牲似乎不算数
为你
可以放弃梦想
跟随你的脚步
把自己都忘记
身边
可能不时下起雷阵雨
但有你这个避风港
帮我挡风遮雨
有你
什么事都不再重要
只要你开心
只要你笑
也许
这一切听起来很傻
但请不要怪我
因为就是爱上了你.
Joyce at 10:00 PM
爱一个人的时候
什么都愿意做
一切牺牲似乎不算数
为你
可以放弃梦想
跟随你的脚步
把自己都忘记
身边
可能不时下起雷阵雨
但有你这个避风港
帮我挡风遮雨
有你
什么事都不再重要
只要你开心
只要你笑
也许
这一切听起来很傻
但请不要怪我
因为就是爱上了你.
Joyce at 10:00 PM
Lalala....
我要给Andrew气死了! (Keeping it at dat.Wont elaborate on tis.)
Anyway, today my four free periods, spent three/two wif Zhang Han, Chen Si, Li Si(Jaime, YuLing, 木木学长.) Wuz ultra funny and full of crap. heh. Jaime started it by pushing Zhang Han's head repeatedly and saying he "没礼貌!" Then later it got passed on and the whole table of us were pushing each other's head and going "没礼貌!" everytime someone said something stupid. Then when jaime they all left for lessons, and i wuz actually getting back to work, the crazy 蟑螂(zhanghan.) suddenly pushed my head and said "没礼貌!" i wuz like staring at him for quite some time to figure out wad happened lor. Then i pushed his head back and went"你才没礼貌~" and added "不只阿...你还有问题!" He's very weird today, and even he realized dat. He kept asking why he's being so crazy today. Talk abt 怪怪. Then we juz kept talking abt "Charlotte's web" in front of him when he crap...(his gf is Charlotte, my sec sch higher chinese classmate for 4yrs!) And becoz of all that playing, i din really study my <冬夜> test. I am so gonna fail(3 pages of crap for the teacher again...)And we were making so much noise, we were saying how 林老师's gonna come out of the LEP teacher's room and slam the table, shouting "没礼貌!". heh. 倒闭...
Had lunch with Wan Jing and Esther(chua) today, they were telling me i shld come for the CCC chalet. and dat i only have to 跟坤颖笑一下, and tell him i wan to go. So yeah. maybe i will go look for him on Monday in LEP room. Somehow i have a feeling i will see him wan(his locker next to mine lor. Everytime see him wan...)But the thing is, i have the YF bbq on 29th. means i will have to leave early, or maybe i shld juz go for bbq on fri nite. (and bbq again on sat night?)
Whew, end of the week. Not rest time, but at least its better than having to see Maggie tomorrow... Why of all the wonderful superb teachers in TJ, i have to get her? Not only as econs tutor or even as PW supervising tutor, but also as my Civics tutor who will be writing my testimonial at the end of two years? WHY? she's NOT good. NOT good at all...
Joyce at 3:48 PM
Anyway, today my four free periods, spent three/two wif Zhang Han, Chen Si, Li Si(Jaime, YuLing, 木木学长.) Wuz ultra funny and full of crap. heh. Jaime started it by pushing Zhang Han's head repeatedly and saying he "没礼貌!" Then later it got passed on and the whole table of us were pushing each other's head and going "没礼貌!" everytime someone said something stupid. Then when jaime they all left for lessons, and i wuz actually getting back to work, the crazy 蟑螂(zhanghan.) suddenly pushed my head and said "没礼貌!" i wuz like staring at him for quite some time to figure out wad happened lor. Then i pushed his head back and went"你才没礼貌~" and added "不只阿...你还有问题!" He's very weird today, and even he realized dat. He kept asking why he's being so crazy today. Talk abt 怪怪. Then we juz kept talking abt "Charlotte's web" in front of him when he crap...(his gf is Charlotte, my sec sch higher chinese classmate for 4yrs!) And becoz of all that playing, i din really study my <冬夜> test. I am so gonna fail(3 pages of crap for the teacher again...)And we were making so much noise, we were saying how 林老师's gonna come out of the LEP teacher's room and slam the table, shouting "没礼貌!". heh. 倒闭...
Had lunch with Wan Jing and Esther(chua) today, they were telling me i shld come for the CCC chalet. and dat i only have to 跟坤颖笑一下, and tell him i wan to go. So yeah. maybe i will go look for him on Monday in LEP room. Somehow i have a feeling i will see him wan(his locker next to mine lor. Everytime see him wan...)But the thing is, i have the YF bbq on 29th. means i will have to leave early, or maybe i shld juz go for bbq on fri nite. (and bbq again on sat night?)
Whew, end of the week. Not rest time, but at least its better than having to see Maggie tomorrow... Why of all the wonderful superb teachers in TJ, i have to get her? Not only as econs tutor or even as PW supervising tutor, but also as my Civics tutor who will be writing my testimonial at the end of two years? WHY? she's NOT good. NOT good at all...
Joyce at 3:48 PM
缘分
缘分
一种让人相遇
又让人分隔的东西
当缘分来到时
怎么避也避不了
没缘时
却怎么也寻不着
不知几时
缘分
才会真正找到
我
不想再次
感叹
“有缘，无分。”
[我在手记上写下了对《绿园》的不舍与想念，彭老师只写了一句回应：有缘的话，会有机会在一起的！]
p.s OH NO!!! 刚发现我没到手记回家！oh no oh no oh no!!!!
Joyce at 8:58 PM
一种让人相遇
又让人分隔的东西
当缘分来到时
怎么避也避不了
没缘时
却怎么也寻不着
不知几时
缘分
才会真正找到
我
不想再次
感叹
“有缘，无分。”
[我在手记上写下了对《绿园》的不舍与想念，彭老师只写了一句回应：有缘的话，会有机会在一起的！]
p.s OH NO!!! 刚发现我没到手记回家！oh no oh no oh no!!!!
Joyce at 8:58 PM
Weird.
Today whole day 心神不定. dunno for sure why. Saw my LEP camp grouping... i'm wif HuiMin. Not bad. And some guy from Hwa Chong JC Jaime and Jie Ying are jumping up and down over. Muz be a nice person, i guess. They all saying why they not in my grp... haha. Saw that my NY frenz all in other grps too... but it'll be nice to get to noe new pple. =)
Today's LEP double period. Couldn stay focused, kept writing the wrong words, dropping my pen, pencil...sigh. 我是怎么了？
Might be the next door seniors, they made so much noise today, esp during 诗歌... their voices louder than the teacher lor. And the door was a little ajar. Felt so much like going up to the door, swing it open, go "SSsssssssshHHH." and swinging it shut. Den mid-way thru the lesson, they got louder and louder and i can actually hear Xin Han's voice, Andrew's voice, that Xiong person's voice talking abt how they shld skip some lesson of some sort. Geez. After the lesson over, i rushed out(cuz the room was freezing cold.) and banged into the 怪怪 andrew, and he was like "orh. u having lesson just now huh? Were we very loud?" Then after i said "yes~~ louder than our teacher. Everyone could hear everything..." the group of them ran like siao.... out of LEP room.
seniors. oh boy. Cant believe i ever called them 学长s.
And Andrew wuz juz saying in the morning how LEP room very noisy. I was talking to him outside LEP room cuz he couldn stand the noise level inside. 倒闭!!
Joyce at 8:14 PM
Today's LEP double period. Couldn stay focused, kept writing the wrong words, dropping my pen, pencil...sigh. 我是怎么了？
Might be the next door seniors, they made so much noise today, esp during 诗歌... their voices louder than the teacher lor. And the door was a little ajar. Felt so much like going up to the door, swing it open, go "SSsssssssshHHH." and swinging it shut. Den mid-way thru the lesson, they got louder and louder and i can actually hear Xin Han's voice, Andrew's voice, that Xiong person's voice talking abt how they shld skip some lesson of some sort. Geez. After the lesson over, i rushed out(cuz the room was freezing cold.) and banged into the 怪怪 andrew, and he was like "orh. u having lesson just now huh? Were we very loud?" Then after i said "yes~~ louder than our teacher. Everyone could hear everything..." the group of them ran like siao.... out of LEP room.
seniors. oh boy. Cant believe i ever called them 学长s.
And Andrew wuz juz saying in the morning how LEP room very noisy. I was talking to him outside LEP room cuz he couldn stand the noise level inside. 倒闭!!
Joyce at 8:14 PM
A letter to [mIn]
[mIn]
Maybe things are better now. Maybe. Cuz i met my fren again. And as usual, his advice is always always the best. And i usually DO heed his advice. And somehow been thinking abt all the things that have been going on. It'll be pure day-dream to wish for a good long break from everything, so i've decided to juz living wif it, and i gained a 'new' perspective abt my life and the pple in it. haha. things are going better than i expected actually. U din come today. missed ya. Had to do the LEP project wif ZhiYuan. sigh. <<药>>. btw. the photos i took wif the whole class is out le. Tomorrow show u.
All the best for ya ex-co interview tomorrow!!! I'm sure Min dan and Andrew and Wan jing and Pei Shi and Si Xian and Clare and Kun Ying will be civil to u. They are super nice pple, rite? =)jiayou!!
P.s Maggie LL wuz bad bad bad today, kept picking on Geraldine as usual...
p.s.s I noe i'm slow la. But found out only today dat dear Esther (The photo esther) is also an ASEAN scholar. Sigh. Tell me quick, who else arnd me are ASEAN scholars... how come like everyone is a scholar of some sort?
Joyce at 11:31 PM
Esther and me!!! I like this photo alot. So does Esther. So cool rite, the angle, and so happens both of us were smiling so happily. =P Was going for my LEP lesson today when i literally knocked into Andrew, who again, was rushing through the corridors like there's no tomorrow. Then i showed him the photos and he was like ultra proud abt his photog skills(this photo was taken by him.) Haha... so while he was so super interested in his new-found talent, i helped him staple his 短评 and some other LEP assignments and helped him handed it up to 张老师(Orh. i remember... the other day go TM, juz before dat he wuz having "第一试卷" wif 张老师, 2 periods somemore. ugh.) . Haha, his work is even more crumpled than mine ever was. =) And 张老师's mailbox was so messy, all Andrew's classmates's works cluttering it, so i went to tidy the mailbox up. haha...
And today's LEP lesson doesn even seem like a lesson, we were just sitting arnd talking, collecting our LEP camp tees(don ask how it looks like. sigh) then we went to LEP lounge there and talked to the pple dere. Haha... until 彭老师 had to literally drag us all back, but by dat time only 5min left.
And 彭老师 says its not too late yet!! Means... i'm flying to BeiJing/ShangHai with Jaime at mid-nov to december for LEP Immersion. Yay!!! I hope i see snow (Someone was laughing abt how, when i go overseas for uni, i'll get sick of the snow.)
Haha. And u noe, recently dunno wad came over the sch management, they decided to move all our benches from below LT1 into the patch of grass with all the tree etc. Someone said it is to 'copy' the overseas schools, where the students study in the warm sun(that perfect image of an australia college etc, with students seated arnd on the grass, studying... u noe.). But HELLO. this is sunny island Singapore, where we get much more sun den we bargained for! And now they want to remove our cool sanctuary study areas and move us back into the sun? Madness... i tell u.
Oh yeah. And that girl who was reading out her 手记 to her fren and i wuz so super impressed by... her name is Si Lang. Wow. Really impressed by her language skills and way of expressing herself. Feel so 自卑... And i tot she wuz a yr 2, but today saw her wif Peiwen they all, she muz be a yr 1. Argh. means is an "equal", not a senior. sigh. Means is i'm lousy, not she's supposed to be better, like in the case of a senior. i feel so失败. (haha. reminds me of 张函. He keep saying he's gonna fail LEP. And i juz realised our free periods and breaks are almost similar, dats why keep seeing him! And Andrew. And dat classmate of theirs, wad Xiong guy.)
Yipee, tomorrow is my "ultra-slack" day, tomorrow and Fri. Go home tomorrow at 11:40am if no contact time!!!! And on fri got 4 periods continuous break. ;P i feel so 自由 today, cuz guess wad, i completed my 5 essays in one shot and handed all of them up, finally! One burden off. Heh. Btw, the shirt me, Wan Jing, Andrew went to buy... i'm the new owner of it! haha. I asked Andrew 4 it la, cuz it bears so much of my <绿园> memories. (Although i cannot and wont wear it. Its afterall a guy's shirt... however "feminine" it is...)
That day i got to know Andrew and Wan Jing. That day in a not so good mood in church, den met them to shop for 服装 and turned the day's mood arnd. That time Andrew tried on the top in THAT shop and i couldn stop laughing at him, and he kept pushing my head cuz of dat. That time Wan Jing bought the wrong bdae card for her fren. That time the three of us were crapping at long John Silvers abt AHS and TJ. That time me and Andrew went to shop for the whole night for assorted stuff. That day i almost went to SAJC to get their uniforms. That most busy week... that i treasure most. Being wif Wan Jing, Andrew, Charlotte, Desmond ,Dai Xing, Yong Ernn, Li Wei and Jie Ying arnd the clock(literally), watching them 排戏 and settling all their costumes. The nights whereby there were no lights left on in school, and Andrew would help me carry all my costumes and we would walk to 会所 wif the aid of his handphone light, and how without fail i would trip over the step near the chemistry noticeboard... Finding the meaning of "second home" in school.The time Wan Jing started hinting me dat i got into the LEO board le. The time all the seniors in CCC knew i got into the board and gave me super obvious hints, somehow thinking i wont be able to guess. Clare's hug, when she knew i couldn join CCC anymore. The final night, this top's colour faded cuz Desmond's choir frenz splashed something on it.... sigh. Will stop reminding myself of all dat. If not will get sad again. Cuz its all over now. 天下无不散之宴席. sigh. And next year i cant help out anymore, due to the "LEO Board Of Directors rule" of not allowing a second PDP or even helping out.
Actually. If i do list my lu yuan memories... i would need an entire .com website.
Well, at least i should smile cuz it happened. and not be that sad that it's over.
Joyce at 10:09 PM
Maybe things are better now. Maybe. Cuz i met my fren again. And as usual, his advice is always always the best. And i usually DO heed his advice. And somehow been thinking abt all the things that have been going on. It'll be pure day-dream to wish for a good long break from everything, so i've decided to juz living wif it, and i gained a 'new' perspective abt my life and the pple in it. haha. things are going better than i expected actually. U din come today. missed ya. Had to do the LEP project wif ZhiYuan. sigh. <<药>>. btw. the photos i took wif the whole class is out le. Tomorrow show u.
All the best for ya ex-co interview tomorrow!!! I'm sure Min dan and Andrew and Wan jing and Pei Shi and Si Xian and Clare and Kun Ying will be civil to u. They are super nice pple, rite? =)jiayou!!
P.s Maggie LL wuz bad bad bad today, kept picking on Geraldine as usual...
p.s.s I noe i'm slow la. But found out only today dat dear Esther (The photo esther) is also an ASEAN scholar. Sigh. Tell me quick, who else arnd me are ASEAN scholars... how come like everyone is a scholar of some sort?
Joyce at 11:31 PM
一天
Esther and me!!! I like this photo alot. So does Esther. So cool rite, the angle, and so happens both of us were smiling so happily. =P Was going for my LEP lesson today when i literally knocked into Andrew, who again, was rushing through the corridors like there's no tomorrow. Then i showed him the photos and he was like ultra proud abt his photog skills(this photo was taken by him.) Haha... so while he was so super interested in his new-found talent, i helped him staple his 短评 and some other LEP assignments and helped him handed it up to 张老师(Orh. i remember... the other day go TM, juz before dat he wuz having "第一试卷" wif 张老师, 2 periods somemore. ugh.) . Haha, his work is even more crumpled than mine ever was. =) And 张老师's mailbox was so messy, all Andrew's classmates's works cluttering it, so i went to tidy the mailbox up. haha...
And today's LEP lesson doesn even seem like a lesson, we were just sitting arnd talking, collecting our LEP camp tees(don ask how it looks like. sigh) then we went to LEP lounge there and talked to the pple dere. Haha... until 彭老师 had to literally drag us all back, but by dat time only 5min left.
And 彭老师 says its not too late yet!! Means... i'm flying to BeiJing/ShangHai with Jaime at mid-nov to december for LEP Immersion. Yay!!! I hope i see snow (Someone was laughing abt how, when i go overseas for uni, i'll get sick of the snow.)
Haha. And u noe, recently dunno wad came over the sch management, they decided to move all our benches from below LT1 into the patch of grass with all the tree etc. Someone said it is to 'copy' the overseas schools, where the students study in the warm sun(that perfect image of an australia college etc, with students seated arnd on the grass, studying... u noe.). But HELLO. this is sunny island Singapore, where we get much more sun den we bargained for! And now they want to remove our cool sanctuary study areas and move us back into the sun? Madness... i tell u.
Oh yeah. And that girl who was reading out her 手记 to her fren and i wuz so super impressed by... her name is Si Lang. Wow. Really impressed by her language skills and way of expressing herself. Feel so 自卑... And i tot she wuz a yr 2, but today saw her wif Peiwen they all, she muz be a yr 1. Argh. means is an "equal", not a senior. sigh. Means is i'm lousy, not she's supposed to be better, like in the case of a senior. i feel so失败. (haha. reminds me of 张函. He keep saying he's gonna fail LEP. And i juz realised our free periods and breaks are almost similar, dats why keep seeing him! And Andrew. And dat classmate of theirs, wad Xiong guy.)
Yipee, tomorrow is my "ultra-slack" day, tomorrow and Fri. Go home tomorrow at 11:40am if no contact time!!!! And on fri got 4 periods continuous break. ;P i feel so 自由 today, cuz guess wad, i completed my 5 essays in one shot and handed all of them up, finally! One burden off. Heh. Btw, the shirt me, Wan Jing, Andrew went to buy... i'm the new owner of it! haha. I asked Andrew 4 it la, cuz it bears so much of my <绿园> memories. (Although i cannot and wont wear it. Its afterall a guy's shirt... however "feminine" it is...)
That day i got to know Andrew and Wan Jing. That day in a not so good mood in church, den met them to shop for 服装 and turned the day's mood arnd. That time Andrew tried on the top in THAT shop and i couldn stop laughing at him, and he kept pushing my head cuz of dat. That time Wan Jing bought the wrong bdae card for her fren. That time the three of us were crapping at long John Silvers abt AHS and TJ. That time me and Andrew went to shop for the whole night for assorted stuff. That day i almost went to SAJC to get their uniforms. That most busy week... that i treasure most. Being wif Wan Jing, Andrew, Charlotte, Desmond ,Dai Xing, Yong Ernn, Li Wei and Jie Ying arnd the clock(literally), watching them 排戏 and settling all their costumes. The nights whereby there were no lights left on in school, and Andrew would help me carry all my costumes and we would walk to 会所 wif the aid of his handphone light, and how without fail i would trip over the step near the chemistry noticeboard... Finding the meaning of "second home" in school.The time Wan Jing started hinting me dat i got into the LEO board le. The time all the seniors in CCC knew i got into the board and gave me super obvious hints, somehow thinking i wont be able to guess. Clare's hug, when she knew i couldn join CCC anymore. The final night, this top's colour faded cuz Desmond's choir frenz splashed something on it.... sigh. Will stop reminding myself of all dat. If not will get sad again. Cuz its all over now. 天下无不散之宴席. sigh. And next year i cant help out anymore, due to the "LEO Board Of Directors rule" of not allowing a second PDP or even helping out.
Actually. If i do list my lu yuan memories... i would need an entire .com website.
Well, at least i should smile cuz it happened. and not be that sad that it's over.
Joyce at 10:09 PM
Sick le*
Hmm.. on mc today. But i din slack at all(i noe JCT coming... muz mug le!) Did a few Lit essays on the computer while chatting wif frenz, den kai ling IM(instant messaged) me and ask how i wuz (hey, thanx gal... always care so much abt silly ol me.)
Then tried to work on another lit essay but my brain wuz all jammed up. Coz of some... unforeseen circumstances. =P Guess i have to do it tomorrow???But i typed half way le, i do wan to re-write!!! Sigh.
I really need a break. From everything. Life's been getting a little over-hectic for me le. And its abt to get worse, i noe.But guess i wont get any nice breaks in the near future, no time for breaks. Gotta mug and mug. and plenty of other stuff to do too! juz now the 22nd Board's Publicity Director called me and asked me to do some poster designs for her. haha. i finished it, but no printer to print. Asked Kee Liang and Marcus for help, shld be solved in no time. =) The two of em are e best!!! (Realise i said dat abt the whole cast of 《快乐着》 and also to wan jing, Andrew. And also to Min Dan and Pei Shi. =I)
I wonder if i'm too late in asking HuiMin to help me tell 彭老师abt the LEP immersion thingy. msged her today, wuz abt to msg everyone in LEP dat i noe. but decided against dat. Hmmm... somehow i woke up today wondering if i will have mail in my LEP mailbox. weird huh? Muz be a weird dream that i got some mail in my mailbox(weird, cuz i seldom, almost NEVER get personal mail in my mailbox. sadz)
I wonder if Andrew found his ties, and if Karen found her shoelaces, and if Yuting found her giordano blouse. (Sheesh, looks like i haven put down my 服装组 workload.)U noe every time is see any of them in school, i'll always ask "Have u found ur clothes? Anymore missing?" Then go to 会所 and search and search and ask Kun ying, Min Dan they all if they haf seen any of those stuff.
Joyce at 11:50 PM
Marcus, my Personnel Director from the 22nd Board of Directors. Heard abt how he always get bullied by the girls in his class, like when he wants to talk, must raise up his hand. *giggle* He's a good guy though, a nice senior to have. The last day of performance, he gave me a pack of tissue, to get ready for the night, which i will be very sad. Haha... den when i was going out for supper with Charlotte, saw him and the service director: Andy at the bus stop. They two looked like someone just died. Then the two of them tried to console me again. haha... they even suggested some place to have supper. But me and Charlotte din go la. =P
Andrew. One of my favourite LEP seniors. This is another good guy. Haha. He always seem to worry that i 迷路, so he always goes wherever i go with me. Even to TM...! Which is just plain funny. But tah-dah, u can see he is a good guy. Constantly pushing my head, (and everyone else's head) and giving me the sian face. =P I miss him the most, out of the whole 《绿园》i tink(If anyone else from《绿园》reading this, of cuz i miss u all too...) . Even though i sometimes still see him in LEP room etc, things are different le... *sobz*
Joyce at 3:54 PM
Then tried to work on another lit essay but my brain wuz all jammed up. Coz of some... unforeseen circumstances. =P Guess i have to do it tomorrow???But i typed half way le, i do wan to re-write!!! Sigh.
I really need a break. From everything. Life's been getting a little over-hectic for me le. And its abt to get worse, i noe.But guess i wont get any nice breaks in the near future, no time for breaks. Gotta mug and mug. and plenty of other stuff to do too! juz now the 22nd Board's Publicity Director called me and asked me to do some poster designs for her. haha. i finished it, but no printer to print. Asked Kee Liang and Marcus for help, shld be solved in no time. =) The two of em are e best!!! (Realise i said dat abt the whole cast of 《快乐着》 and also to wan jing, Andrew. And also to Min Dan and Pei Shi. =I)
I wonder if i'm too late in asking HuiMin to help me tell 彭老师abt the LEP immersion thingy. msged her today, wuz abt to msg everyone in LEP dat i noe. but decided against dat. Hmmm... somehow i woke up today wondering if i will have mail in my LEP mailbox. weird huh? Muz be a weird dream that i got some mail in my mailbox(weird, cuz i seldom, almost NEVER get personal mail in my mailbox. sadz)
I wonder if Andrew found his ties, and if Karen found her shoelaces, and if Yuting found her giordano blouse. (Sheesh, looks like i haven put down my 服装组 workload.)U noe every time is see any of them in school, i'll always ask "Have u found ur clothes? Anymore missing?" Then go to 会所 and search and search and ask Kun ying, Min Dan they all if they haf seen any of those stuff.
Joyce at 11:50 PM
Introducing... the good guys left in TJ. (haha...)
Marcus, my Personnel Director from the 22nd Board of Directors. Heard abt how he always get bullied by the girls in his class, like when he wants to talk, must raise up his hand. *giggle* He's a good guy though, a nice senior to have. The last day of performance, he gave me a pack of tissue, to get ready for the night, which i will be very sad. Haha... den when i was going out for supper with Charlotte, saw him and the service director: Andy at the bus stop. They two looked like someone just died. Then the two of them tried to console me again. haha... they even suggested some place to have supper. But me and Charlotte din go la. =P
Andrew. One of my favourite LEP seniors. This is another good guy. Haha. He always seem to worry that i 迷路, so he always goes wherever i go with me. Even to TM...! Which is just plain funny. But tah-dah, u can see he is a good guy. Constantly pushing my head, (and everyone else's head) and giving me the sian face. =P I miss him the most, out of the whole 《绿园》i tink(If anyone else from《绿园》reading this, of cuz i miss u all too...) . Even though i sometimes still see him in LEP room etc, things are different le... *sobz*
Joyce at 3:54 PM
Another of my crappy drafts.
Someone tell me this is all but a dream
Someone wake me up and not let me drift off to sleep. Again.
Someone tell me he is not worth it
Someone, go on, tell me that we are from different worlds.
Convince me it willl never work out
Convince me nothing ever took place
And that it was all a figment of my overactive imagination.
But I noe, if someone were to really tell me all that
I would feel the world crashing down again.
I would feel that all that had never taken place is gone now.
I would want him to be here once again
To wipe away the tears from my face
To hold my hand and make everything alright again
To give me a hug that would end all troubles.
I am contradicting myself, as always.
It is a simple yet complicated case.
It is a basic yet deep concept to understand.
It is a feeling only those involved would know.
I cannot say anything. I should not speak.
I should try my best to cut all ties
Yet its becoming harder and harder to do it.
I will end off, once again, with an apology.
A heartfelt, sincere "sorry."
A common word that has such profound meaning and depth.
I hope you know.
Please say you do.
I am so sorry,
So sorry i accidently fell in love with you.
Joyce at 9:56 PM
Someone wake me up and not let me drift off to sleep. Again.
Someone tell me he is not worth it
Someone, go on, tell me that we are from different worlds.
Convince me it willl never work out
Convince me nothing ever took place
And that it was all a figment of my overactive imagination.
But I noe, if someone were to really tell me all that
I would feel the world crashing down again.
I would feel that all that had never taken place is gone now.
I would want him to be here once again
To wipe away the tears from my face
To hold my hand and make everything alright again
To give me a hug that would end all troubles.
I am contradicting myself, as always.
It is a simple yet complicated case.
It is a basic yet deep concept to understand.
It is a feeling only those involved would know.
I cannot say anything. I should not speak.
I should try my best to cut all ties
Yet its becoming harder and harder to do it.
I will end off, once again, with an apology.
A heartfelt, sincere "sorry."
A common word that has such profound meaning and depth.
I hope you know.
Please say you do.
I am so sorry,
So sorry i accidently fell in love with you.
Joyce at 9:56 PM
CCC. LEO Board. 绿园.
Slacked at CCC room again. Haha... i've been to the LEO clubhouse la. But i feel kinda out of place dere. Like,even though it has alot of stuff(fridge, cooker, microwave... u name it!)not much pple hang out there, its like... 冷冷清清. But CCC room's different. It is messy, but it always has at least someone inside to talk to, and has loads of memories. I called Marcus and Kee Liang today, to try if i can join CCC again. They were both super nice. But the answer is kinda definite:no.
LEO 23rd board of directors is fun. They are all great pple. But maybe cuz the bond if not formed yet, i miss CCC more. As in, Kee Liang, the new president is really efficient and capable lor(we finished out meeting in an hours time! I tink is a record lor... cuz its kinda famous dat LEO board meetings usually end arnd 9pm for the earliest... latest wuz 3am.)And Kee Liang msges us(23rd Board) wif nice messages like "muz jia you!" "Let's help one another whenever we can!" etc. Plus the 22nd Board are also super pple. Marcuz, my PD is really nice. he msged me juz now telling me not to be sad and tell me to try and enjoy meself in Board. Hai. 谈何容易... but that's not the 重点,重点 is, he's nice.
Had 检讨 for CCC. heard pretty positive comments, even seniors said it wuz better than previous years!!! Yay! And dere were even comments dat this year's 绿园is as good if not better than 黄城. But i dun like it when pple compare us wif HC. Cuz afterall, we're different. We did 绿园 by 绿园standards, not 黄城. Its unfair for both us and HC to be compared lidat lor. Just don like it. =I And apparently, those first 3 months in HC ones weren't thrilled too, to be told that 绿园 is said to be better(not by TJCians k... by HwaChongians themselves!)
Also, handed in my 手记 late today. First time i actually did something late for LEP(Haha... i finished writing, but handed it in late.) Basically cuz i only started writing this morning. And as usual, it din make sense to me. So i handed in yet another senseless entry to the teacher. (Miraculously, the teacher always can make some sense out of it, she can actually comment on it! Wow!)Somemore this week i am still in an extremely sad and heart-broken state, is cannot write anything one lor....
Joyce at 9:02 PM
Yay! Finally, a photo of me and HuiMin to stick on our locker!! Nice?
Haha... got loads more. But not very satisfactory. hehz. And i realised i really took alot of photos wif Andrew N Wan jing... hahaha.... my two beloved 导演s. Miss them so much!!(Actually i juz saw andrew today. But nvm.)
Joyce at 9:49 PM
LEO 23rd board of directors is fun. They are all great pple. But maybe cuz the bond if not formed yet, i miss CCC more. As in, Kee Liang, the new president is really efficient and capable lor(we finished out meeting in an hours time! I tink is a record lor... cuz its kinda famous dat LEO board meetings usually end arnd 9pm for the earliest... latest wuz 3am.)And Kee Liang msges us(23rd Board) wif nice messages like "muz jia you!" "Let's help one another whenever we can!" etc. Plus the 22nd Board are also super pple. Marcuz, my PD is really nice. he msged me juz now telling me not to be sad and tell me to try and enjoy meself in Board. Hai. 谈何容易... but that's not the 重点,重点 is, he's nice.
Had 检讨 for CCC. heard pretty positive comments, even seniors said it wuz better than previous years!!! Yay! And dere were even comments dat this year's 绿园is as good if not better than 黄城. But i dun like it when pple compare us wif HC. Cuz afterall, we're different. We did 绿园 by 绿园standards, not 黄城. Its unfair for both us and HC to be compared lidat lor. Just don like it. =I And apparently, those first 3 months in HC ones weren't thrilled too, to be told that 绿园 is said to be better(not by TJCians k... by HwaChongians themselves!)
Also, handed in my 手记 late today. First time i actually did something late for LEP(Haha... i finished writing, but handed it in late.) Basically cuz i only started writing this morning. And as usual, it din make sense to me. So i handed in yet another senseless entry to the teacher. (Miraculously, the teacher always can make some sense out of it, she can actually comment on it! Wow!)Somemore this week i am still in an extremely sad and heart-broken state, is cannot write anything one lor....
Joyce at 9:02 PM
Photos~
Yay! Finally, a photo of me and HuiMin to stick on our locker!! Nice?
Haha... got loads more. But not very satisfactory. hehz. And i realised i really took alot of photos wif Andrew N Wan jing... hahaha.... my two beloved 导演s. Miss them so much!!(Actually i juz saw andrew today. But nvm.)
Joyce at 9:49 PM
给你的歌。
=====================
那种微酸的滋味
有种微醺的感觉
梦做一半比较美.
=====================
其实我不知道
眼泪有没有流
就像这故事中
你有没有爱过我
你的爱就像彩虹
雨后的天空
绚烂却叫人迷惑
只好慢慢承认
这故事叫做错
=====================
现在也只能欣赏
唯一的合照一张
淡忘了的是那个街角
想念的是当时的微笑
生活中交错失望
越想念就越寂寞
=====================
末班车回家
雨一直下
整夜忍的泪
他不听话
我不想去擦
就这样吧
爱让这女孩
一夜长大。
=====================
牵着你陪着我也只是曾经
希望他是真的比我还要爱你
我才会逼自己离开。
你已经远远离开
我也会慢慢走开。
我会学着放弃你
是因为我太爱你。
=====================
没别的
只想说对不起
对不起
我真的爱你。
=====================
爱过的他
和流过的泪
都会是珍贵的记号
忘不忘
不重要?
====================
Joyce at 9:33 PM
那种微酸的滋味
有种微醺的感觉
梦做一半比较美.
=====================
其实我不知道
眼泪有没有流
就像这故事中
你有没有爱过我
你的爱就像彩虹
雨后的天空
绚烂却叫人迷惑
只好慢慢承认
这故事叫做错
=====================
现在也只能欣赏
唯一的合照一张
淡忘了的是那个街角
想念的是当时的微笑
生活中交错失望
越想念就越寂寞
=====================
末班车回家
雨一直下
整夜忍的泪
他不听话
我不想去擦
就这样吧
爱让这女孩
一夜长大。
=====================
牵着你陪着我也只是曾经
希望他是真的比我还要爱你
我才会逼自己离开。
你已经远远离开
我也会慢慢走开。
我会学着放弃你
是因为我太爱你。
=====================
没别的
只想说对不起
对不起
我真的爱你。
=====================
爱过的他
和流过的泪
都会是珍贵的记号
忘不忘
不重要?
====================
Joyce at 9:33 PM
不舍得...
Today went to CCC room to slack once sch wuz over. Met MinDan and Liwei dere. We played 1 and a 1/2 hours of 无聊游戏. Drew lots and anyhow crapped up the new ex-co. haha... i kept drawing Pamela to be the new treasurer. haha... and the name 王康 kept popping up. We cracked up like siao, and played and laughed. But i noe all these will be over very very soon.
Maybe that is why i dun mind being more bo liao now. I don mind staying till 8pm and wait for Andrew who said he might not even come. I just wan to be able to sit in that room and the spot outside CCC room for as long as i can. To keep things this way for as long as i can hold on. Haha. Now they all say i too 宠 Andrew le. Haha... wait for him for so long, becuz waiting for him, don dare go eat, just ate cup noodles in CCC room, on the FLOOR, cuz the sofa no space le, all clothes. Then he's probably out wif his girlfren... so, quite stupid "sacrifice" actually. haha... But hey, if it was Kun Ying, or even Desmond, i would stay too lor.
But its weird. This feeling of holding on, not willing to let go yet. The want to continue wif them, continue seeing them.... i don even mind being as busy as last week for as long as it takes. I'm in love wif all of them. There's actually a LEO Club house. But i don even noe lor, much less been to it. I heard its air-conditioned etc, like the most posh PDP room... but somehow my 情 for CCC seems deeper? I don really mind CCC room being the messiest PDP room ever. 爱死你们了!
Joyce at 9:09 PM
Maybe that is why i dun mind being more bo liao now. I don mind staying till 8pm and wait for Andrew who said he might not even come. I just wan to be able to sit in that room and the spot outside CCC room for as long as i can. To keep things this way for as long as i can hold on. Haha. Now they all say i too 宠 Andrew le. Haha... wait for him for so long, becuz waiting for him, don dare go eat, just ate cup noodles in CCC room, on the FLOOR, cuz the sofa no space le, all clothes. Then he's probably out wif his girlfren... so, quite stupid "sacrifice" actually. haha... But hey, if it was Kun Ying, or even Desmond, i would stay too lor.
But its weird. This feeling of holding on, not willing to let go yet. The want to continue wif them, continue seeing them.... i don even mind being as busy as last week for as long as it takes. I'm in love wif all of them. There's actually a LEO Club house. But i don even noe lor, much less been to it. I heard its air-conditioned etc, like the most posh PDP room... but somehow my 情 for CCC seems deeper? I don really mind CCC room being the messiest PDP room ever. 爱死你们了!
Joyce at 9:09 PM
Notes.
Min:
I'm really grateful to all u've done, however simple they seem. Ur hug was the most real one dat nite. because only you know the real reason. Its more painful actually, to have people try to console me without even getting the reason rite. U were great that nite. u did a good job. I will try to smile. i will try to forget. i will try to go to LEO and move on in a new phase in my TJ life. But i wan u to be included. My best locker-mate, my best room-mate. =)
Des:
Hey. U are constantly laughing at me and talking crap. And usually they don make sense, cuz... NO LINK. =P
But i never realised this. You actually did cheer me up. U and ur no link crap works miracles. Hehz. I wanna say a big thank you. Thank you for everything u've done. Whether u meant it or not (cuz i seriously doubt ur sincerity, sorry... u always seem to be just making fun of me, and ACCIDENTLY cheering me up.)
Jing:
I've said most of the things i wanted to say in my letter to u. Thanks gal.
Andrew:
If i had a big brother, i want him to be like you. Thanks for everything. I miss u already. See u arnd in LEP room, senior. Please remember to wave and say Hi.
MinDan:
The greatest 艺术总监 of the century goes to u, dear. I don care wad the Hwa Chong pple say. They can keep their 黄城 to themselves. Really. And forget abt that senior Ant. everyone's stepping on her le. Let's both not be sad. I promise to go back to CCC room to visit u and everyone else everytime i can find. =) Thanks for ur smiles. They always make my day. Thanks for making 绿园 such a big success. We owe alot alot of it to u. And thanks so much for believing in me so much. Ur trust is of high value to me.
Marcus:
My dear Personnel Director. Thanks for coming the other nite. Thanks for ur pack of tissue. I will do my best in the 23rd Board of Directors and try to continue where u guys left off. And yes. i will try to cheer up. =) And i'm fine.
Sure. Perfectly fine.
Joyce at 9:43 PM
I wont exhange anything for
The tears and joys we share
The warmest hugs and
the sweetest smiles
The cutest actors and
the coolest directors.
The closest frenz
and the best of them.
All the times and meals
together.
The deepest, most treasured memory
The days i'll miss the most.
Joyce at 11:27 PM
I'm really grateful to all u've done, however simple they seem. Ur hug was the most real one dat nite. because only you know the real reason. Its more painful actually, to have people try to console me without even getting the reason rite. U were great that nite. u did a good job. I will try to smile. i will try to forget. i will try to go to LEO and move on in a new phase in my TJ life. But i wan u to be included. My best locker-mate, my best room-mate. =)
Des:
Hey. U are constantly laughing at me and talking crap. And usually they don make sense, cuz... NO LINK. =P
But i never realised this. You actually did cheer me up. U and ur no link crap works miracles. Hehz. I wanna say a big thank you. Thank you for everything u've done. Whether u meant it or not (cuz i seriously doubt ur sincerity, sorry... u always seem to be just making fun of me, and ACCIDENTLY cheering me up.)
Jing:
I've said most of the things i wanted to say in my letter to u. Thanks gal.
Andrew:
If i had a big brother, i want him to be like you. Thanks for everything. I miss u already. See u arnd in LEP room, senior. Please remember to wave and say Hi.
MinDan:
The greatest 艺术总监 of the century goes to u, dear. I don care wad the Hwa Chong pple say. They can keep their 黄城 to themselves. Really. And forget abt that senior Ant. everyone's stepping on her le. Let's both not be sad. I promise to go back to CCC room to visit u and everyone else everytime i can find. =) Thanks for ur smiles. They always make my day. Thanks for making 绿园 such a big success. We owe alot alot of it to u. And thanks so much for believing in me so much. Ur trust is of high value to me.
Marcus:
My dear Personnel Director. Thanks for coming the other nite. Thanks for ur pack of tissue. I will do my best in the 23rd Board of Directors and try to continue where u guys left off. And yes. i will try to cheer up. =) And i'm fine.
Sure. Perfectly fine.
Joyce at 9:43 PM
Dearest <<绿园>>
I wont exhange anything for
The tears and joys we share
The warmest hugs and
the sweetest smiles
The cutest actors and
the coolest directors.
The closest frenz
and the best of them.
All the times and meals
together.
The deepest, most treasured memory
The days i'll miss the most.
Joyce at 11:27 PM
You say it best, when you say nothing at all....(?)
It's amazing how you can speak right to my heart
Without saying a word, you can light up the dark
Try as I may I could never explain
What I hear when you don't say a thing.
The smile on your face lets me know that you need me
There's a truth in your eyes saying you'll never leave me
The touch of your hand says you'll catch me whenever I fall
You say it best... when you say nothing at all.
Joyce at 11:04 PM
Without saying a word, you can light up the dark
Try as I may I could never explain
What I hear when you don't say a thing.
The smile on your face lets me know that you need me
There's a truth in your eyes saying you'll never leave me
The touch of your hand says you'll catch me whenever I fall
You say it best... when you say nothing at all.
Joyce at 11:04 PM
太阳雨
最近下起了太阳雨
大太阳下竟有可能下起
那么大的雨
[有心事啊?]
[没有啦...]
没有才怪.
太阳雨对身体不好
很容易就会生病
比平时下大雨还惨
What does
stress,
sadness,
disappointment,
all mingled together
make?
Joyce at 10:02 PM
大太阳下竟有可能下起
那么大的雨
[有心事啊?]
[没有啦...]
没有才怪.
太阳雨对身体不好
很容易就会生病
比平时下大雨还惨
What does
stress,
sadness,
disappointment,
all mingled together
make?
Joyce at 10:02 PM
终于哭出来了
My beautifully fabricated dreams.
Suddenly they've all vanished.
They've all slipped out of reach.
My world is crashing down on me.
All my hard work seem to just flow like water into the vast ocean.
All my strength seemed to be completely drained out of me.
I just lost my focus and my goals.
I feel lost, aimless, with fog ahead.
All those pent-up tears are finally let out.
I can leave everything out of my world for now
and just cry everything out,
with this, as an excuse.
I can't believe i was stupid enough to think i can compete with anyone
Those great people don't even see you as an opponent
just another idiot.
An idiot full of dreams and hopes.
Joyce at 10:50 PM
Suddenly they've all vanished.
They've all slipped out of reach.
My world is crashing down on me.
All my hard work seem to just flow like water into the vast ocean.
All my strength seemed to be completely drained out of me.
I just lost my focus and my goals.
I feel lost, aimless, with fog ahead.
All those pent-up tears are finally let out.
I can leave everything out of my world for now
and just cry everything out,
with this, as an excuse.
I can't believe i was stupid enough to think i can compete with anyone
Those great people don't even see you as an opponent
just another idiot.
An idiot full of dreams and hopes.
Joyce at 10:50 PM
So much for Labour Day
My Labour Day. A day of rest. sure.
Everyone(or maybe juz me and Mindan and Su Hui and Wan Jing and....) wad pretty fed-up wif something or other today. The level of stress is sky-high. Like for me, i wuz pretty much rushing abt btw the emcees, the 3 plays cast and directors and this and dat. Den my phone keep ringing non-stop like dat la. And the weather wuz atrocious lor. Hot like crazy. Then have to run abt the sch.... sigh.
But most of the seniors were alright to me. They kept saying is my grp leader always ask me do this do dat. (cuz got one or two times they saw my grp leader slacking and reading magazine while i am busy with alot of things lidat.)
Anyway. its over. 6 more days and it'll ALL be over.
Joyce at 10:16 PM
Everyone(or maybe juz me and Mindan and Su Hui and Wan Jing and....) wad pretty fed-up wif something or other today. The level of stress is sky-high. Like for me, i wuz pretty much rushing abt btw the emcees, the 3 plays cast and directors and this and dat. Den my phone keep ringing non-stop like dat la. And the weather wuz atrocious lor. Hot like crazy. Then have to run abt the sch.... sigh.
But most of the seniors were alright to me. They kept saying is my grp leader always ask me do this do dat. (cuz got one or two times they saw my grp leader slacking and reading magazine while i am busy with alot of things lidat.)
Anyway. its over. 6 more days and it'll ALL be over.
Joyce at 10:16 PM
比 stress 还要 stress
Mr Walker's Merchant Of Venice essay.
Mr Hunter's Lit essay.
Mr Walker's new Hamlet essay.
手记 for the next week.
创作稿 for the coming month.
默写《把酒问月》next monday.
《绿园》
服装组
成为服装组的 acting 组长
服装组的组员个个没空
真正的组长不见
整个《绿园》的服装担子完完全全落在我身上
很多服装怎么都找不到。(Apron...[TJCians all studying. No one cooks.], Bright, brand new sport shoes in size 12 [how to find size 12? How to find anyone generous enough to lend you their brand new shoes??] and many many more.)
LEO 23rd Board of Directors Results on 8th May
Dying Economics.
Holding on to 青年团 and Sunday Service.
开始担当不起的 "new status" ("orh... your school pple are the minority here. You must be the cream of the crop", "TJC? Oh wow...", "I'm sure you must be very very smart. What do you take? Triple science rite?" , "TJ wor... never tell us you so 厉害.") Geez.
The Future.
University. (Do i meet requirements.Wad if i don?Maths?Grades[now like all Cs... and low Bs..]?)
...someone....
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比 stress 还要 stress。。。
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放慢脚步。
校园其实好美好美。绿色的美。树。鸟的歌声。清风。
电话又在震动了。“欣盈！你现在在哪里？你可以比块还要快地赶来会所吗？快点！”
加快了脚步。
在叹息中继续我的一天。
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Joyce at 9:25 AM
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Feeling...
Mr Hunter's Lit essay.
Mr Walker's new Hamlet essay.
手记 for the next week.
创作稿 for the coming month.
默写《把酒问月》next monday.
《绿园》
服装组
成为服装组的 acting 组长
服装组的组员个个没空
真正的组长不见
整个《绿园》的服装担子完完全全落在我身上
很多服装怎么都找不到。(Apron...[TJCians all studying. No one cooks.], Bright, brand new sport shoes in size 12 [how to find size 12? How to find anyone generous enough to lend you their brand new shoes??] and many many more.)
LEO 23rd Board of Directors Results on 8th May
Dying Economics.
Holding on to 青年团 and Sunday Service.
开始担当不起的 "new status" ("orh... your school pple are the minority here. You must be the cream of the crop", "TJC? Oh wow...", "I'm sure you must be very very smart. What do you take? Triple science rite?" , "TJ wor... never tell us you so 厉害.") Geez.
The Future.
University. (Do i meet requirements.Wad if i don?Maths?Grades[now like all Cs... and low Bs..]?)
...someone....
------------------------------------------------------------
比 stress 还要 stress。。。
------------------------------------------------------------
放慢脚步。
校园其实好美好美。绿色的美。树。鸟的歌声。清风。
电话又在震动了。“欣盈！你现在在哪里？你可以比块还要快地赶来会所吗？快点！”
加快了脚步。
在叹息中继续我的一天。
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Joyce at 9:25 AM
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